I don't think at that point in your life you would want to entertain any new ideas or possibilities. It would behoove you to delude yourself for the remainder of the voyage.
Life could be brutal or soon over standing on a street corner begging with a tin cup at 80.
It pays to keep in mind that thousands of people all over the world are living off the proceeds of the Watchtower Corporation.
So for some there is no hope of escaping. So sad but so true.